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[Sep. 26th, 2007|05:33 pm] |
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It's been so long since I've written a real entry like this, so I think I should do one now. There's so much stuff in my head, I just have to put it somewhere. Just like I used to ...
I guess it's not true that I'm not upset at Mum at all anymore. I mean, she did leave out of nowhere, and I had to do all that work all alone, and we're never going to get that chance ever again. But what's being mad at her going to help? Nothing, really, so why bother? I'll just let her know I'm still not happy about it in my own way until she feels bad about it.
... if she even notices. I mean, it's okay! I'm not upset at that! She's so in love with him and it's actually really nice to see her so happy ♥! He is a really nice guy, too. He's really friendly with me. But he's not my Dad, and she kind of ... it's like she doesn't even notice I'm here when she's around.
And I think Brian is upset at something again, even though I don't know what. Maybe it's just being back home. I wish he'd just talk to her father or at least his brothers. That might fix so much. Men don't make any sense, sometimes. Brian always says that I should confront things head on more, but he doesn't do it at all himself, and that's what men are supposed to do, right? Confront things head on, all manly and stuff? I don't know.
My poor flowers really are looking a little wilty, but they'll probably be fine with a little water and love ♥. It actually is kind of a good thing, I guess. The garden is something that I can do without having to be inside the shop. He's there all the time, now. They really do love each other. Mum seems soooooo happy. That's a good thing, right? Yeah, that's right. The flowers are going to die soon anyway, but I like it when they look healthy until the last minute. It makes me feel good ♥.
That Harry boy is nice to talk to, though. I hope he makes it as a knight! And he doesn't get hurt out there ... I guess we're really lucky that we didn't meet any bandits. All these stories I keep here are really bad. It's so sad that sort of thing is happening so close to home. I'm sure Brian would have taken care of me though. He always does ♥.
Wow, I feel so much better already! I really need to write things down like this more, especially since I keep telling Brian to. It's just so good to get your head all cleaned out ♥. I think I'll go work in my garden now.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Emma. |
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