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[Apr. 18th, 2008|03:23 am] |
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Well, it really seems that everybody agreed that I should tell somebody. And it should probably be Mum, really, but ... well, I can't tell Mum. I just can't. Arthur is the only thing that's made her happy at all. She never used to smile or be able to get up out of bed on some days and if not for Arthur then she'd still be like that. What would happen if she knew what Arthur was doing?
... but who else can I tell? I can't leave her here with him when he could do something, maybe, even though I don't think he would. If I told Brian, he'd probably kill him or something like that. I don't really have any other friends, not real friends. People who I'm nice to and so they're nice back, but ...
It's not fair. I do everything I do so that people will be my friends, so that people will like me, so there are people I can trust ... and right now I really need somebody I can trust and there's nobody at all.
I can't tell Mum, no matter what everyone says. I really just can't. And I can't tell Brian. Anyone else would tell Mum or Brian or they wouldn't do anything and
And I just don't know.
I don't want him to touch me again. What if he does more, next time? I just don't understand. I'm not that pretty and he has Mum, so why does he need to do this? |
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